I keep meaning to re-read The Plague and have a copy on my phone because every moment I read and write is a desperate time-squeeze. I wonder what your thought are given the current human situation.
It's so true how we get trapped and sometimes yearn for the wrong things for our souls. Sometimes being on that wrong side still informs us in the longing itself.
Yes, it's not so bad. I just cannot be a pig in bliss for too long.
"It is better to be a human being dissatisfied than a pig satisfied; better to be Socrates dissatisfied than a fool satisfied. And if the fool, or the pig, are of a different opinions, it is because they only know their side of the question." J.S. Mill